Economic Theory of Trauma Part I
In some part, this has led to the development of what I am calling my “economic theory of trauma” (Malecek, 2010). What I have done is transposed psychological theory into economic theory in the following manner. Suppose one has only a limited amount of money ($100) to spend on daily activities, including eating, sleeping, etc. Let us further suppose that of that set amount, one must use a certain portion thereof to maintain, obviate, or obfuscate the memories of past trauma, or the sequelae thereof (via habits, addictions, and defense mechanisms of every stripe). Let us say that this last costs $50 per day. Therefore one must carefully expend the other half of one’s daily endowment to maintain one’s beingness – eating, sleeping, etc.
I envision healing in this context to be the equivalent of gaining greater vitality and power through healing the vicious metastasis of old shame, shame-avoidance (created to hide, obviate, or deflect the effects of the shame), and the usual variety of addictions most individuals practice. (I include in this category all manner of fundamentalism, personality rigidity, and other fear-driven responses that suppress full vitality in an individual). The net result of healing old traumas would be an increase in one’s daily income of $50 (in this example) – actually and effectively doubling the amount of money one has to spend in pursuit of one’s chosen desire and interests.
One does not draw money in a healthy manner by obsessing over it. One draws money by actually embracing one’s own value, by embodying a sense of value, of feeling valuable and worthwhile. Otherwise money is just another addiction like any other. Most of the people on this planet (especially the ultra-rich oligarchs) are obsessed with money and temporal power as symbols of worth and value. To the extent that they lack self-worth, they acquire money through manipulation and deceit, through some “authorized” mechanism built into the current system of disparity and delusion. It may be the biggest delusion of all that most of humanity is trapped into the belief that value or self-worth, Reality itself, is located outside of one’s self – and therefore obtainable through manipulation and greed. The extremely classist system in which we live is, in fact, nothing more than a re-creation of the medieval system of nobles and serfs. It is funded by the same manner of thinking, which is neo-Darwinian and posits social worth and value on possessions; and further, makes the ownership of private property the basis upon which to place value. There is no inherent value to any human (or for that matter, animal or any other) life. The only value is in ownership and the power to manipulate the system for one’s personal gain.
To the extent that one fails to value oneself (and the reasons are legion), one may live a life of penury and misery. This may be especially so if (more usually when) on defends one’s perpetrators as having been “good parents” (or any similar excuse). Most people live their lives defending their disabilities or inabilities; or living in such a way as to defend or ameliorate the damage wrought by abusive and damaging childrearing. Shame avoidance spreads across the spectrum, and includes all addictions, which are, in turn, exploited by the exploiters of the system – which in turn has been set up and manipulated by those who seek power over others through exploiting their weaknesses and addictions, all the while claiming that they themselves are morally superior, hence their higher social and financial position (neo-Darwinism).
The same I have said of money may easily apply to other addictions. To the extent I lack personal value, real and true love and empathic understanding and forgiveness for myself and my position in life, I will devalue and sabotage myself and my life in various (and often subtle ways) so that I seem to not have that which I desire (e.g., money, thinness, etc). I will then blame my lack of having what I want on not having what I want (“If I only had enough money”). Whereas in actuality, having what one wants must accord with being what one wants! This includes a deeply working sense of well-being and self-esteem that mirrors an examined and thoroughly cleansed life path history. If one does not truly feel valuable, it will be impossible for one to be valued by the Universe. One may obsessively seek money, or bemoan one’s lack of it, but, unless one genuinely feels valuable and worthy of receiving valuables, one will only do so under extraordinary circumstances and by manipulation. Money, and more importantly valuing, will not and cannot come to one. It is impossible in the holographic Universe (in which everything is a mirror for everything). One draws to oneself what one is magnetically. Therefore one always has what one wants despite the appearance or disavowal to the contrary. One’s inner state is always reflected in one’s outer state.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Friday, June 4, 2010
I have lived most of my life in shame and emotional penury. I have only very rarely felt valuable, worthy, or deserving of anything good or wonderful. In the context of the magnetic (or holographic) universe, I, of course, have always attracted influences that reinforced that which I though myself to be. The next result of my learning and reinforcement has been such that I have always felt justified in feeling worthless and shitty – especially in feeling that I did not deserve any better. When something wonderful did happen, it was always overshadowed by the sense that I did not deserve it, or I would immediately taint the experience in some way (i.e., demeaning the value of my accomplishment, or slopping gravy on my brand-new silk tie).
What has developed in more recent years is gratitude. Being grateful for my life, my life experiences, my suffering – ultimately for each and every experience I have had that has shaped and enriched me – has given me numerous opportunities to mourn my losses and grieve my past. This process has allowed me to “clear the decks,” as it were, making room for new growth. It is only through letting go of the past that I have managed to stay alive (i.e., not commit suicide) in the face of the otherwise overwhelming mass of decimating negative data and the encumbering weight of my own heartfelt invalidation and unworthiness.
Greed Addiction
I believe that the addiction to greed is the most pervasive and least discussed addiction on the planet. If one were to ask 100 people what single thing would improve their lives, the greatest majority would give some form of answer relating to money. Because, for most people, acquiring more money means having more power, more ability to control and manipulate the world, an increased sense of well-being related to an enhanced ownership of material goods and command of services. Usually though, the acquisition of more money is seen or felt to give an increased sense of self-esteem, as if having more money would make one a better person.
An addiction is a sort of self-replicating virus that once set in motion needs no further inducement to replicate. In this it is linked to the idea of ideological hegemony. If one can be induced into believing that a particular action is beneficial (or even self-serving, if not beneficial; or that one deserves to participate or indulge in such an action or substance), then one will repeat it without further induction or reinforcement. In fact, it will likely become self-reinforcing, even if the action or substance may ultimately be viewed as self-destructive or harmful. One will continue to use even if one “objectively” notes the destructiveness; because the addiction is taking place, is living, as it were, on an emotional level. No amount of cogitation or intellectual discourse will ever effect a lasting change. (The intellectual understanding of addiction only makes it more frustrating in some ways because one believes one may [delusionally] believe that one may think one’s way out of it. I use the word “delusionally” purposefully because one may develop a fixed idea that one may think one’s way out when all indicators are to the contrary. Indeed, the intellectual understanding of addictions should rightly only come long after one has successfully stopped the using, and has some relatively long period of abstinence. It is then that the intellectual understanding may become useful in giving a context to what one has already experienced and hopefully begun to integrate.
And what better “business” to be in for a profit-oriented organization (all the way up to and including the corporate state) than one in which one’s adherents willingly consume whatever product they are hooked on, do not question the origin of the addiction itself, and will actually pay money to one in order to maintain it? This is the “perfect plan” that is being executed by the US Government and its ties to large corporations, especially banks. Such horrendous activities as the bailout of the savings and loans in the 1980s and the bailout of the major banks in the 2000’s are just typical examples of the utter bamboozlement and addiction of the American people who have stood still and been raped repeatedly while being told that what is occurring is for “our own good.”
The process of being blinded begins with socialization, wherein one is taught through repeated instruction to abandon one’s own autonomy and put one’s faith in external authority; to vest one’s decision making in the outer, the other; and to forego one’s questioning of authority in order to be further wrapped in the dubious blanket of “security.” One is taught from the very beginning that one’s parents (and other adults) have one’s own best interests in mind – and that one must surrender one’s will and one’s desires, interests and opinions in order to bask in this pseudo-certainly of collective will manifesting through authority figures who represent the system as a whole. It is rarely, if ever, revealed that these seemingly sterling citizens are simply furthering their own self-interests while ostensibly serving as representatives of the “people’s power.” An entire disinformation system (much of it hidden under the aegis of “national security”) has become devoted to convincing people of the massive lies and misinformation being fed to us, in order that we might blindly keep working and feed the system. Meanwhile, the cultural elites bask in ever-greater sunshine and personal resources. These cultural elites further delude themselves in the belief that they have a divine right to rule and control vast resources because they were born to money or power. This is, in fact, the social Darwinist position.
I Am The Gift
I have searched my whole life long for the magical gift
that would change my life irrevocably,
remake my deteriorated interior landscape.
I hoped and prayed many, many times daily, crying out,
my pain horrendous, wanting desperately to transform
the massive depression and despair
I always saw everywhere around me –
yet really and truly never inside of me.
While I constantly screamed, slashed by the thorny lash
of self-flagellation and invalidation,
seeking, always seeking a cosmic relief of some sort,
even the proverbial hand reaching down from the sky
when all I could manage on my own behalf
was vulgar castigation and decrepitude.
But I was the victim! I cried!
I was the injured party! I wailed,
as I retreated into my wounded injured child;
huffing, puffing, and throwing my considerable bulk around,
to the fear and consternation of all who knew me (or not) –
to see this monster raving and pillaging the environment,
seeming bent on their destruction while pursuing really my own,
in small ways that re-enacted the horrors of my childhood enslavement,
in idiosyncratic ways in which I sought safety from the torrential
storms of self-repudiation and destruction raging within my chest
violently seeking release and redemption.
There seemed no antidote for this poisoned imperative –
neither drugs nor sex, not money or therapy.
Not matter how much I seemed to grow,
it was simply more fuel for the fires that burned
constantly out of control within me, nurtured at every turn
by the aching awareness of my inability to ever be enough,
enough for me, enough to feel valuable and worthy and free.
My frequent suicidal ideation interrupted by cosmic interventions,
and driven by a lifelong vision, I persevered –
I had been shown that a different life would one day be mine,
though at the age of eight it was incomprehensible
that I would experience and survive the artifacts of my life;
that I would be standing, perhaps not necessarily upright,
but even if knocked down and severely beaten,
I would get up from the ground and stand again,
ready to take on whatever the next challenges might be –
though part of me always longed to be held and comforted,
taken care of as if still a child, wounded and longing.
I hid this aspect of myself in shame and penury,
so contaminated did I feel that I should not allow these feelings,
and the behaviors they spawned.
I lived in a shadow world, even long after I stopped using drugs;
and made some serious resolutions about my sexual addiction –
though nothing really ever stopped the craving
to be more whole and relatively free,
to be more completely me and face the world with a greater calm,
love and acceptance, seeing in every face some variety of my own suffering;
seeing in every face some divine aspect of my own beingness.
Sunshine appeared one day in the midst of my cloudy daily resignation,
in the form of a man who offered me an opportunity to experience myself
in a brand new way, and lay down my burden of sorrow
by revealing my deepest needs and pain to myself,
witnessed in the loving presence of other men
who would hold a container of strength and courage for me
to let go of all that I had held in shame and isolation.
Not once, but repeatedly,
have these outstanding individuals stood up
and welcomed me into their circles,
greeted me as “Brother” and made known to me
their forthrightness, honor, and strength –
made known to me the depth and breadth of their love and commitment
to utterly transform the darkness that has ruled the hearts
of humanity for these many millennia, “one man at a time.”
I have been well and truly blessed by these amazing men –
yet I must credit my own self for being willing to step up
to receive the blessings and honor they have shown me;
for being willing to find the courage to own my shame,
to let it go, let it show –
to not be ashamed or crushed
by my perceived lack of “manly manness,”
when I am actually elevated to new heights
by the tenderness and sensitivity of my heart;
to a realm where needs and feelings are met when expressed;
honored for honesty and love, the entrance to the gate.
I am blessed and honored far beyond anything I could have imagined,
and I am told, there is yet so much more for me to receive.
I am graced in this magnificent brotherhood,
by men who are as strong and as weak as I –
and unafraid to shed their skins publicly
in order to open to the new life coming for us all;
to embrace that new self, that is the birthright of us all,
freed of lies and conflicts, obscured by eons of deception and illusion,
hidden by seeming need and necessity,
at the behest and demanding mandates of machine culture –
NOW being systematically freed by men
throwing off the shackles of aberrant conditioning,
and stating in a clear, strong voice, one and all:
“I Am The Gift.”
I am the gift I have always sought,
a precious treasure locked in my heart of hearts all along,
hidden from my view by obsolete necessities,
buried beneath the rubbish of violence and restraint
out of fear and the shame of being seen for I am,
now I am unarmored after lifetimes of fighting and war,
both within and without –
“I Am The Gift.”
April 24-25, 2010
Camp Wa-Ri-Ki
Washougal, Washington
April 26, 2010
Manzanita, Oregon
What has developed in more recent years is gratitude. Being grateful for my life, my life experiences, my suffering – ultimately for each and every experience I have had that has shaped and enriched me – has given me numerous opportunities to mourn my losses and grieve my past. This process has allowed me to “clear the decks,” as it were, making room for new growth. It is only through letting go of the past that I have managed to stay alive (i.e., not commit suicide) in the face of the otherwise overwhelming mass of decimating negative data and the encumbering weight of my own heartfelt invalidation and unworthiness.
Greed Addiction
I believe that the addiction to greed is the most pervasive and least discussed addiction on the planet. If one were to ask 100 people what single thing would improve their lives, the greatest majority would give some form of answer relating to money. Because, for most people, acquiring more money means having more power, more ability to control and manipulate the world, an increased sense of well-being related to an enhanced ownership of material goods and command of services. Usually though, the acquisition of more money is seen or felt to give an increased sense of self-esteem, as if having more money would make one a better person.
An addiction is a sort of self-replicating virus that once set in motion needs no further inducement to replicate. In this it is linked to the idea of ideological hegemony. If one can be induced into believing that a particular action is beneficial (or even self-serving, if not beneficial; or that one deserves to participate or indulge in such an action or substance), then one will repeat it without further induction or reinforcement. In fact, it will likely become self-reinforcing, even if the action or substance may ultimately be viewed as self-destructive or harmful. One will continue to use even if one “objectively” notes the destructiveness; because the addiction is taking place, is living, as it were, on an emotional level. No amount of cogitation or intellectual discourse will ever effect a lasting change. (The intellectual understanding of addiction only makes it more frustrating in some ways because one believes one may [delusionally] believe that one may think one’s way out of it. I use the word “delusionally” purposefully because one may develop a fixed idea that one may think one’s way out when all indicators are to the contrary. Indeed, the intellectual understanding of addictions should rightly only come long after one has successfully stopped the using, and has some relatively long period of abstinence. It is then that the intellectual understanding may become useful in giving a context to what one has already experienced and hopefully begun to integrate.
And what better “business” to be in for a profit-oriented organization (all the way up to and including the corporate state) than one in which one’s adherents willingly consume whatever product they are hooked on, do not question the origin of the addiction itself, and will actually pay money to one in order to maintain it? This is the “perfect plan” that is being executed by the US Government and its ties to large corporations, especially banks. Such horrendous activities as the bailout of the savings and loans in the 1980s and the bailout of the major banks in the 2000’s are just typical examples of the utter bamboozlement and addiction of the American people who have stood still and been raped repeatedly while being told that what is occurring is for “our own good.”
The process of being blinded begins with socialization, wherein one is taught through repeated instruction to abandon one’s own autonomy and put one’s faith in external authority; to vest one’s decision making in the outer, the other; and to forego one’s questioning of authority in order to be further wrapped in the dubious blanket of “security.” One is taught from the very beginning that one’s parents (and other adults) have one’s own best interests in mind – and that one must surrender one’s will and one’s desires, interests and opinions in order to bask in this pseudo-certainly of collective will manifesting through authority figures who represent the system as a whole. It is rarely, if ever, revealed that these seemingly sterling citizens are simply furthering their own self-interests while ostensibly serving as representatives of the “people’s power.” An entire disinformation system (much of it hidden under the aegis of “national security”) has become devoted to convincing people of the massive lies and misinformation being fed to us, in order that we might blindly keep working and feed the system. Meanwhile, the cultural elites bask in ever-greater sunshine and personal resources. These cultural elites further delude themselves in the belief that they have a divine right to rule and control vast resources because they were born to money or power. This is, in fact, the social Darwinist position.
I Am The Gift
I have searched my whole life long for the magical gift
that would change my life irrevocably,
remake my deteriorated interior landscape.
I hoped and prayed many, many times daily, crying out,
my pain horrendous, wanting desperately to transform
the massive depression and despair
I always saw everywhere around me –
yet really and truly never inside of me.
While I constantly screamed, slashed by the thorny lash
of self-flagellation and invalidation,
seeking, always seeking a cosmic relief of some sort,
even the proverbial hand reaching down from the sky
when all I could manage on my own behalf
was vulgar castigation and decrepitude.
But I was the victim! I cried!
I was the injured party! I wailed,
as I retreated into my wounded injured child;
huffing, puffing, and throwing my considerable bulk around,
to the fear and consternation of all who knew me (or not) –
to see this monster raving and pillaging the environment,
seeming bent on their destruction while pursuing really my own,
in small ways that re-enacted the horrors of my childhood enslavement,
in idiosyncratic ways in which I sought safety from the torrential
storms of self-repudiation and destruction raging within my chest
violently seeking release and redemption.
There seemed no antidote for this poisoned imperative –
neither drugs nor sex, not money or therapy.
Not matter how much I seemed to grow,
it was simply more fuel for the fires that burned
constantly out of control within me, nurtured at every turn
by the aching awareness of my inability to ever be enough,
enough for me, enough to feel valuable and worthy and free.
My frequent suicidal ideation interrupted by cosmic interventions,
and driven by a lifelong vision, I persevered –
I had been shown that a different life would one day be mine,
though at the age of eight it was incomprehensible
that I would experience and survive the artifacts of my life;
that I would be standing, perhaps not necessarily upright,
but even if knocked down and severely beaten,
I would get up from the ground and stand again,
ready to take on whatever the next challenges might be –
though part of me always longed to be held and comforted,
taken care of as if still a child, wounded and longing.
I hid this aspect of myself in shame and penury,
so contaminated did I feel that I should not allow these feelings,
and the behaviors they spawned.
I lived in a shadow world, even long after I stopped using drugs;
and made some serious resolutions about my sexual addiction –
though nothing really ever stopped the craving
to be more whole and relatively free,
to be more completely me and face the world with a greater calm,
love and acceptance, seeing in every face some variety of my own suffering;
seeing in every face some divine aspect of my own beingness.
Sunshine appeared one day in the midst of my cloudy daily resignation,
in the form of a man who offered me an opportunity to experience myself
in a brand new way, and lay down my burden of sorrow
by revealing my deepest needs and pain to myself,
witnessed in the loving presence of other men
who would hold a container of strength and courage for me
to let go of all that I had held in shame and isolation.
Not once, but repeatedly,
have these outstanding individuals stood up
and welcomed me into their circles,
greeted me as “Brother” and made known to me
their forthrightness, honor, and strength –
made known to me the depth and breadth of their love and commitment
to utterly transform the darkness that has ruled the hearts
of humanity for these many millennia, “one man at a time.”
I have been well and truly blessed by these amazing men –
yet I must credit my own self for being willing to step up
to receive the blessings and honor they have shown me;
for being willing to find the courage to own my shame,
to let it go, let it show –
to not be ashamed or crushed
by my perceived lack of “manly manness,”
when I am actually elevated to new heights
by the tenderness and sensitivity of my heart;
to a realm where needs and feelings are met when expressed;
honored for honesty and love, the entrance to the gate.
I am blessed and honored far beyond anything I could have imagined,
and I am told, there is yet so much more for me to receive.
I am graced in this magnificent brotherhood,
by men who are as strong and as weak as I –
and unafraid to shed their skins publicly
in order to open to the new life coming for us all;
to embrace that new self, that is the birthright of us all,
freed of lies and conflicts, obscured by eons of deception and illusion,
hidden by seeming need and necessity,
at the behest and demanding mandates of machine culture –
NOW being systematically freed by men
throwing off the shackles of aberrant conditioning,
and stating in a clear, strong voice, one and all:
“I Am The Gift.”
I am the gift I have always sought,
a precious treasure locked in my heart of hearts all along,
hidden from my view by obsolete necessities,
buried beneath the rubbish of violence and restraint
out of fear and the shame of being seen for I am,
now I am unarmored after lifetimes of fighting and war,
both within and without –
“I Am The Gift.”
April 24-25, 2010
Camp Wa-Ri-Ki
Washougal, Washington
April 26, 2010
Manzanita, Oregon
Thursday, May 20, 2010
"I am so lonely.”
I have suffered from a loneliness that I have always felt to be for another, but that, in recent years, at least occasionally in moments of great clarity, I have come to see as a pathological loneliness of and for the self. I have always felt this tremendous longing to unite with a woman; but my every attempt to do so has proven ultimately to be a failure. Yet I have never stopped believing in the possibility of this perfect match, this exquisite mating soul-to-soul. In this current moment of clarity, I understand that it is impossible for me to find another with whom to have this relationship because it is my own self I seek. It is the missing aspects or parts of myself with which I long to belong; with which I crave with my heart of hearts to be as one.
There is no one, no woman, who will ever fill the torn and damaged part of me; will never fill my heart with joy and satisfaction; will never light me up with inspiration and effulgence. Never. None. It is so disheartening, after all these years of seeking, to suddenly realize that there is no one, and never will be anyone; that I have spent my life in delusion, wanting to have restored some aspect of myself that has never existed at all perhaps, that was stolen from me before I even had a chance to develop a more complete wholeness and autonomy. Perhaps the “missing piece,” the source of my loneliness is for the deepest and most fragile part of me. Perhaps it is true that I have never really known my true self, and have, therefore, always longed for that. Perhaps, as the Buddhists say, I have always been seeking after illusion – and only now in utter disillusionment does my journey really begin.
Perhaps that which I seek has always been within myself, immediately in my grasp – and yet I believed that it was someone or something outside of myself that I was seeking and for which I had to become worthy. I have always envisioned a time when she would come; when I had paid enough dues to be worthy of her goddess-like presence in my life. Now it seems that it has all been an illusion. Now it seems that perhaps there never has been anyone after whom I have sought; perhaps it has always been some aspect of myself that I have sought – and all of the burdens and sorrows I have carried and suffered have simply been a cleansing for my heart and soul.
Perhaps it is true what Gautama Buddha said, that all desire brings pain; and that the only way to stop the pain is to relinquish the desire. Perhaps the entire journey of this lifetime has been arranged on some cosmic level for me to reach this very point of clarity and disillusionment, this apotheosis of awareness in which I am, perhaps for the very first time, cognizant of my utter emptiness and dependence on the Universe; that I might become more willing and available to be a cosmic instrument and serve the Greater Whole; that I might finally surrender the forlorn burden of separateness and the delusion of greatness suppressed and denied.
I feel strangely lighter in that this has been lifted from me in this moment. At least right now, I no longer feel burdened or oppressed by the aching hunger in my gut and heart. I no longer feel that I am waiting for someone to arrive in my life to fill me up and magically transform my life circumstances. If there is a muse (and I am sure there is), she is neither here to save me nor will she come because I am needy and emotionally penurious. She will come when I am in the full bloom of my selfness and the fullness of the art that is I. Anything short of total spiritual recognition of the self and full responsibility and effort toward its completion is a spiritual crime, and cannot, will not, be tolerated or nurtured.
If I am come into the fullness of my selfness and spirituality, then she must meet me there. Neither of us may be any longer allowed anything less that total self-expression. Though I am tempted to say that I have some glimmer, or have seen a vision of what that might be, I cannot. Though I may be filled with desires and the wantingness of things to be fulfilled – dreams and hurts and hungers carried through countless millennia – I really have no idea what the Creator has in mind for me. I feel very empty yet very full. I have absolutely no idea what dreams may come. Conversely, I have this sense that whatever comes for me will be wonderful, joyous, and grand. WOW!
I have suffered from a loneliness that I have always felt to be for another, but that, in recent years, at least occasionally in moments of great clarity, I have come to see as a pathological loneliness of and for the self. I have always felt this tremendous longing to unite with a woman; but my every attempt to do so has proven ultimately to be a failure. Yet I have never stopped believing in the possibility of this perfect match, this exquisite mating soul-to-soul. In this current moment of clarity, I understand that it is impossible for me to find another with whom to have this relationship because it is my own self I seek. It is the missing aspects or parts of myself with which I long to belong; with which I crave with my heart of hearts to be as one.
There is no one, no woman, who will ever fill the torn and damaged part of me; will never fill my heart with joy and satisfaction; will never light me up with inspiration and effulgence. Never. None. It is so disheartening, after all these years of seeking, to suddenly realize that there is no one, and never will be anyone; that I have spent my life in delusion, wanting to have restored some aspect of myself that has never existed at all perhaps, that was stolen from me before I even had a chance to develop a more complete wholeness and autonomy. Perhaps the “missing piece,” the source of my loneliness is for the deepest and most fragile part of me. Perhaps it is true that I have never really known my true self, and have, therefore, always longed for that. Perhaps, as the Buddhists say, I have always been seeking after illusion – and only now in utter disillusionment does my journey really begin.
Perhaps that which I seek has always been within myself, immediately in my grasp – and yet I believed that it was someone or something outside of myself that I was seeking and for which I had to become worthy. I have always envisioned a time when she would come; when I had paid enough dues to be worthy of her goddess-like presence in my life. Now it seems that it has all been an illusion. Now it seems that perhaps there never has been anyone after whom I have sought; perhaps it has always been some aspect of myself that I have sought – and all of the burdens and sorrows I have carried and suffered have simply been a cleansing for my heart and soul.
Perhaps it is true what Gautama Buddha said, that all desire brings pain; and that the only way to stop the pain is to relinquish the desire. Perhaps the entire journey of this lifetime has been arranged on some cosmic level for me to reach this very point of clarity and disillusionment, this apotheosis of awareness in which I am, perhaps for the very first time, cognizant of my utter emptiness and dependence on the Universe; that I might become more willing and available to be a cosmic instrument and serve the Greater Whole; that I might finally surrender the forlorn burden of separateness and the delusion of greatness suppressed and denied.
I feel strangely lighter in that this has been lifted from me in this moment. At least right now, I no longer feel burdened or oppressed by the aching hunger in my gut and heart. I no longer feel that I am waiting for someone to arrive in my life to fill me up and magically transform my life circumstances. If there is a muse (and I am sure there is), she is neither here to save me nor will she come because I am needy and emotionally penurious. She will come when I am in the full bloom of my selfness and the fullness of the art that is I. Anything short of total spiritual recognition of the self and full responsibility and effort toward its completion is a spiritual crime, and cannot, will not, be tolerated or nurtured.
If I am come into the fullness of my selfness and spirituality, then she must meet me there. Neither of us may be any longer allowed anything less that total self-expression. Though I am tempted to say that I have some glimmer, or have seen a vision of what that might be, I cannot. Though I may be filled with desires and the wantingness of things to be fulfilled – dreams and hurts and hungers carried through countless millennia – I really have no idea what the Creator has in mind for me. I feel very empty yet very full. I have absolutely no idea what dreams may come. Conversely, I have this sense that whatever comes for me will be wonderful, joyous, and grand. WOW!
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Body Weight is a Political Issue
We in the contemporary world have become inured of fast-paced, highly advertised products touted by celebrities who are highly remunerated for their efforts to promote shoddy merchandise, or nutritionally empty, calorie-rich foods – or worse, arguing the relative values of one brand of alcohol over another.
According to “corporate law” (which term is actually oxymoronic), the only responsibility – the single standard to which a corporation need be held – is that it makes money for its shareholders (Korten, 2007, p. 8). We act as if the false standard (perhaps even delusion) of the contemporary universe that holds that we are all separate individuals floating around in the meaningless void were an indisputable fact. There is no other moral or ethical standard that ever need be applied in terms of damage to others or the environment. The occasional court case that surfaces wherein corporations are to be held accountable for sleazy practices or immoral behaviors is usually settled out of court. No one holds corporations responsible for polluting rivers or clear-cutting miles of virgin forest. Of course not. “It’s their job,” we exclaim, as if employment and wage earning were a sacred task; that working at a job and paying taxes were holy work; and that production and consumption were the ultimate goal of evolution.
By this line of logic, there is absolutely no consideration given to the spiritual or moral realm. None. The entire focus objectifies the process as if it were somehow devoid of life. But then, this is in keeping with the worldview that has been practiced and promulgated for approximately the last 12,000 years – since the advent of cultivated agriculture. We might now call it the Cartesian-Newtonian-Darwinian worldview (the clockwork or machine universe) because of the workings of scientific reductionism that have taken a Higher Power of any sort out of the equation; and left us with what Wilber (1995) called “flatland thinking,” in which our worldview has no contours or curves because it has been bulldozed flat for easier consumption.
What a terrible price we have paid for our ease and convenience! What a horrendous burden we have placed on the living waters and cornucopic wonders of our abundant, giving Mother Planet! So many people give lip service to environmental crisis, or any of the other fill-in-the-blank crises that we as a totality of humanity are facing these days; but how little it seems most people are willing to do about it. How many millions of tons of garbage are thoughtlessly deposited in the oceans of the world daily? How much toxic effluent from countless factories is poured into the rivers and streams, the very veins and arteries of our living planet?
And to what end? To make more money! And why? Because each of us from birth has been conditioned (under the guise of “education” and “socialization”) to believe that we must assume our place in the already extant society; and we must do so in ways that we are “taught” (often with violence or other forms of coercion) by those into whose care we are entrusted from birth onward. It is some part of the nature of this conditioning that one rarely retains a working memory of what has transpired during this earliest period of development. It is also about this age when the average person begins to identify with and use the pronoun “I,” indicating a nascent understanding of his or her relative separateness from the world.
This sense of separateness (cupidity, isolation) is a “necessary” condition for the world to operate the way it has in development of technology and what we view as the “modern world,” with its tools and toys, with its many, many forms of entertainment and medication for every manner of taste and need. It seems generally taken for granted that the order and manner of the (especially) Western technologically-oriented worldview is somehow “correct” because Western civilization has controlled the world for the past few centuries, even millennia. It does not matter. I will not quibble about a few thousand years when the planet has been here for approximately 4 ½ billion years (Dalrymple, 1991). It is really only in the last 500 years that humankind has risen (though I use the word advisedly) to its current heights (ditto) vis a vis technology. Eisenstien (2007) has noted the deep and intimate ties between technology and force – and how using the former almost always implies or actualized the latter.
Because I have been haunted for the bulk of my life by a perceived sense of powerlessness and futility, I have examined this question deeply and obsessively for many years. Thus my search has been one of examining the roots of power, its development, and manifestations. My journey has taken me far and wide into the world of the mind and heart – through religion and spirituality; through sociology and psychology; through medicine and alternative healing methods; through practices both legal and illegal; through almost every form of psychotherapy, including forays into deadly, brain-damaging “psychiatric medications.” I have concluded that there seems to be a format or template on which or through which children are reared, especially in Western civilization. Miller (1985) called this the “poisonous pedagogy,” and addressed it as the toxifying agentic process underlying the development of violence and psychopathology in adults, originating in childhood.
I agree with her perspective, and further believe that it is the shame-based rules and guidelines by which children are reared that lead directly to addictions and almost all forms of what is called “mental illness”. Furthermore, it is the toxic sequelae of these childrearing methods that induce unmet emotional and spiritual needs in generation after generation of children that result in multigenerational addictions and diseases. To some extent, this might even be viewed as the meta-intention of those who own and control the infrastructure of society (the “cultural elites”) – to generate a seemingly endless wave of addictive people to produce and consume thoughtlessly – with no concern of desire beyond the satisfaction of their own immediate needs.
We are taught to attempt to satisfy that hunger with money and food and unrestrained sex; with fast cars, liposuction, drugs and alcohol – anything other than to feel and deal with the shame and pain underlying it. My premise is quite simple. Being reared with shame leaves a residue in one’s life – toxic memories and a devastating hunger for fulfillment that Yarrow (1961) called “affect hunger”. If one is able to integrate the tremendous energy that it takes to maintain a self-destructive addiction, then one has the possibility of transforming one’s life; and devoting to healthy self-love and self-care all of the previously misaligned power and energy.
To do so requires a great deal of work on oneself. It also requires compassion, honesty, love, joy, and the ability to look at one’s faults and foibles unflinchingly – and then proceed to change oneself in accord with the mandates of the resulting vision in order to finally attain all of the aspects of self that addictions only promised. But the greatest of these is forgiveness. It is absolutely imperative that one comes to forgive oneself all of one’s faults and foibles, all of one’s perceived transgressions against oneself and others. It is the greatest virtue and the highest healing.
In doing this, one must often go against the ways of the world. I now see all addictions as being self-destructive, induced as they are to keep one from being self-aware of one’s faults and deficiencies as well as skills and powers – both the Shadow and the Gold. Because addiction is so efficient, one must abandon it utterly and take up a new way in order to redeem (L., redemere: to repurchase) oneself. It is only in owning oneself, all of the traits and quirks and foibles; and doing so with love and joy and compassion that willingly acknowledges one’s faults and one’s greatness – that one becomes capable of being a true and genuine human being.
One is hindered in this great and tremendous quest by contemporary society’s insane focus on money and acquisitions – and its obviation of spiritual awareness and the larger relationships required to support living gently on this planet that supports us all. Societal and political systems that do not nurture a sense of wholeness block spiritual awareness and development. In this sense then, body weight is a political issue because the gross distortions that compulsive overeaters develop are a result of attempting to suppress or manage tremendous toxic shame stored as memories of abuse and neglect. These are aided and abetted by an addictiogenic society focused on efficiency and order and the making of money.
Thus, in some ways, the ability to eliminate weight and maintain it, are directly related to one’s belief systems and one’s perceived relationship with one’s family, one’s peers, and ultimately, the planet as a whole. One’s belief systems create one’s reality. If one acts on a false belief, one will create a distorted reality (i.e., a fat body). I believe excess body weight is actually a metaphor for the amount of toxic emotional material one carries and has not yet released.
This really relates to the idea of creating a kind of scar tissue around early wounds such that one does not have to be confronted by them on a daily basis. I am, of course, referring to emotionally traumatic, shame-based wounds and memories. Much of what is considered to be adult behavior is really nothing more than various defense mechanisms erected to deflect attention from one’s innate woundedness – addictions, aggressive behaviors, anger, condescension, assumed superiority, even sexism, racism, classism, and ageism. All of these very effectively keep attention away from one’s woundedness.
They are also very costly in terms of one’s own energies. They require a lot of attention, maintenance, and upkeep. Being angry all the time, for example, requires that one have a constant supply of material about which to be angry, or more correctly, about which one feels justifies feeling angry. Then one can keep one’s offended attitude in the forefront to contend with others – and not admit the possibility that one feels frightened, ashamed, and insecure. The same might be said of most of the façades that people construct, that become known as personality styles. Most are the result of early wounds that are being cared for and cultivated because they resulted from interactions with one’s earliest caregivers – who were, at the time, absolutely necessary for one’s survival, and hence unable to be adjudged as having done anything wrong. One therefore turned very early against oneself in blame and shame to defend whatever atrocious actions were taken against one – defended them and adjudicated them as correct and proper; and judged oneself therefore to have been wrong and at blame! Having done this repeatedly, one easily arrives at a position of feeling guilty, at least, for assigning any blame or responsibility to one’s caregivers.
At the same time, it is quite difficult to pursue the tasks of one’s adult life with the enormous burden of the residua of the original acts in one’s daily awareness and consciousness. Thus, one might early adopt eating too much food (a favorite of mine) in order to cloud or obfuscate one’s own consciousness; in order to be less aware of the caustic experiences – in other words, to dissociate from one’s own self in some manner. Like any repetitive action, one can easily become inured of it – and use it even in situation when it is not necessary or appropriate. One might adopt such a behavioral pattern as one’s normative choice.
Healing, therefore, becomes a matter of integrating the dissociated material; and subsequently adopting new behavioral patterns based on the healed awareness (i.e., eating less because one no longer has aberrant cravings for more than one actually needs; not using stimulant drugs because one no longer feels severely depressed and energetically sluggish without them). These new behavioral patterns are relatively easy when one no longer feels the need to shelter or defend the damaging actions, and the sequelae, of one’s earliest caregivers. Then all of the anger and rage that one may have been directing toward oneself will be appropriately assigned to the proper party, and released. The emotion must be released first. At some point thereafter, forgiveness will come of its own accord, as will appropriate eating habits and body weight adjustment. But the healing and the release are primary and, as such, cannot be forced.
The entire process may become much easier, if one no longer has to use food to suppress innate desires and needs. One need not struggle, blaming “demons” or cursing one’s craving for sweets and carbohydrates; or denigrate oneself, wishing one were “normal.” One can simply be whom one is, and must perforce make one’s own way in the world. One’s path is neither easier nor harder than anyone else’s. But it will be one’s own, won utterly and with a lovingkindness one was never shown as a child. One has to “grow myself up” as it were, by being one’s own best analog inner parent, treating oneself in the best possible ways one can – as a loving, protective adult fiercely guarding one’s inner child. One must emotionally become an adult, and not blame one’s parents (or others) for one’s pains and difficulties. One must be responsible for fostering joy and embracing the power that resides within oneself – and for manifesting the world in the image one embraces.
We in the contemporary world have become inured of fast-paced, highly advertised products touted by celebrities who are highly remunerated for their efforts to promote shoddy merchandise, or nutritionally empty, calorie-rich foods – or worse, arguing the relative values of one brand of alcohol over another.
According to “corporate law” (which term is actually oxymoronic), the only responsibility – the single standard to which a corporation need be held – is that it makes money for its shareholders (Korten, 2007, p. 8). We act as if the false standard (perhaps even delusion) of the contemporary universe that holds that we are all separate individuals floating around in the meaningless void were an indisputable fact. There is no other moral or ethical standard that ever need be applied in terms of damage to others or the environment. The occasional court case that surfaces wherein corporations are to be held accountable for sleazy practices or immoral behaviors is usually settled out of court. No one holds corporations responsible for polluting rivers or clear-cutting miles of virgin forest. Of course not. “It’s their job,” we exclaim, as if employment and wage earning were a sacred task; that working at a job and paying taxes were holy work; and that production and consumption were the ultimate goal of evolution.
By this line of logic, there is absolutely no consideration given to the spiritual or moral realm. None. The entire focus objectifies the process as if it were somehow devoid of life. But then, this is in keeping with the worldview that has been practiced and promulgated for approximately the last 12,000 years – since the advent of cultivated agriculture. We might now call it the Cartesian-Newtonian-Darwinian worldview (the clockwork or machine universe) because of the workings of scientific reductionism that have taken a Higher Power of any sort out of the equation; and left us with what Wilber (1995) called “flatland thinking,” in which our worldview has no contours or curves because it has been bulldozed flat for easier consumption.
What a terrible price we have paid for our ease and convenience! What a horrendous burden we have placed on the living waters and cornucopic wonders of our abundant, giving Mother Planet! So many people give lip service to environmental crisis, or any of the other fill-in-the-blank crises that we as a totality of humanity are facing these days; but how little it seems most people are willing to do about it. How many millions of tons of garbage are thoughtlessly deposited in the oceans of the world daily? How much toxic effluent from countless factories is poured into the rivers and streams, the very veins and arteries of our living planet?
And to what end? To make more money! And why? Because each of us from birth has been conditioned (under the guise of “education” and “socialization”) to believe that we must assume our place in the already extant society; and we must do so in ways that we are “taught” (often with violence or other forms of coercion) by those into whose care we are entrusted from birth onward. It is some part of the nature of this conditioning that one rarely retains a working memory of what has transpired during this earliest period of development. It is also about this age when the average person begins to identify with and use the pronoun “I,” indicating a nascent understanding of his or her relative separateness from the world.
This sense of separateness (cupidity, isolation) is a “necessary” condition for the world to operate the way it has in development of technology and what we view as the “modern world,” with its tools and toys, with its many, many forms of entertainment and medication for every manner of taste and need. It seems generally taken for granted that the order and manner of the (especially) Western technologically-oriented worldview is somehow “correct” because Western civilization has controlled the world for the past few centuries, even millennia. It does not matter. I will not quibble about a few thousand years when the planet has been here for approximately 4 ½ billion years (Dalrymple, 1991). It is really only in the last 500 years that humankind has risen (though I use the word advisedly) to its current heights (ditto) vis a vis technology. Eisenstien (2007) has noted the deep and intimate ties between technology and force – and how using the former almost always implies or actualized the latter.
Because I have been haunted for the bulk of my life by a perceived sense of powerlessness and futility, I have examined this question deeply and obsessively for many years. Thus my search has been one of examining the roots of power, its development, and manifestations. My journey has taken me far and wide into the world of the mind and heart – through religion and spirituality; through sociology and psychology; through medicine and alternative healing methods; through practices both legal and illegal; through almost every form of psychotherapy, including forays into deadly, brain-damaging “psychiatric medications.” I have concluded that there seems to be a format or template on which or through which children are reared, especially in Western civilization. Miller (1985) called this the “poisonous pedagogy,” and addressed it as the toxifying agentic process underlying the development of violence and psychopathology in adults, originating in childhood.
I agree with her perspective, and further believe that it is the shame-based rules and guidelines by which children are reared that lead directly to addictions and almost all forms of what is called “mental illness”. Furthermore, it is the toxic sequelae of these childrearing methods that induce unmet emotional and spiritual needs in generation after generation of children that result in multigenerational addictions and diseases. To some extent, this might even be viewed as the meta-intention of those who own and control the infrastructure of society (the “cultural elites”) – to generate a seemingly endless wave of addictive people to produce and consume thoughtlessly – with no concern of desire beyond the satisfaction of their own immediate needs.
We are taught to attempt to satisfy that hunger with money and food and unrestrained sex; with fast cars, liposuction, drugs and alcohol – anything other than to feel and deal with the shame and pain underlying it. My premise is quite simple. Being reared with shame leaves a residue in one’s life – toxic memories and a devastating hunger for fulfillment that Yarrow (1961) called “affect hunger”. If one is able to integrate the tremendous energy that it takes to maintain a self-destructive addiction, then one has the possibility of transforming one’s life; and devoting to healthy self-love and self-care all of the previously misaligned power and energy.
To do so requires a great deal of work on oneself. It also requires compassion, honesty, love, joy, and the ability to look at one’s faults and foibles unflinchingly – and then proceed to change oneself in accord with the mandates of the resulting vision in order to finally attain all of the aspects of self that addictions only promised. But the greatest of these is forgiveness. It is absolutely imperative that one comes to forgive oneself all of one’s faults and foibles, all of one’s perceived transgressions against oneself and others. It is the greatest virtue and the highest healing.
In doing this, one must often go against the ways of the world. I now see all addictions as being self-destructive, induced as they are to keep one from being self-aware of one’s faults and deficiencies as well as skills and powers – both the Shadow and the Gold. Because addiction is so efficient, one must abandon it utterly and take up a new way in order to redeem (L., redemere: to repurchase) oneself. It is only in owning oneself, all of the traits and quirks and foibles; and doing so with love and joy and compassion that willingly acknowledges one’s faults and one’s greatness – that one becomes capable of being a true and genuine human being.
One is hindered in this great and tremendous quest by contemporary society’s insane focus on money and acquisitions – and its obviation of spiritual awareness and the larger relationships required to support living gently on this planet that supports us all. Societal and political systems that do not nurture a sense of wholeness block spiritual awareness and development. In this sense then, body weight is a political issue because the gross distortions that compulsive overeaters develop are a result of attempting to suppress or manage tremendous toxic shame stored as memories of abuse and neglect. These are aided and abetted by an addictiogenic society focused on efficiency and order and the making of money.
Thus, in some ways, the ability to eliminate weight and maintain it, are directly related to one’s belief systems and one’s perceived relationship with one’s family, one’s peers, and ultimately, the planet as a whole. One’s belief systems create one’s reality. If one acts on a false belief, one will create a distorted reality (i.e., a fat body). I believe excess body weight is actually a metaphor for the amount of toxic emotional material one carries and has not yet released.
This really relates to the idea of creating a kind of scar tissue around early wounds such that one does not have to be confronted by them on a daily basis. I am, of course, referring to emotionally traumatic, shame-based wounds and memories. Much of what is considered to be adult behavior is really nothing more than various defense mechanisms erected to deflect attention from one’s innate woundedness – addictions, aggressive behaviors, anger, condescension, assumed superiority, even sexism, racism, classism, and ageism. All of these very effectively keep attention away from one’s woundedness.
They are also very costly in terms of one’s own energies. They require a lot of attention, maintenance, and upkeep. Being angry all the time, for example, requires that one have a constant supply of material about which to be angry, or more correctly, about which one feels justifies feeling angry. Then one can keep one’s offended attitude in the forefront to contend with others – and not admit the possibility that one feels frightened, ashamed, and insecure. The same might be said of most of the façades that people construct, that become known as personality styles. Most are the result of early wounds that are being cared for and cultivated because they resulted from interactions with one’s earliest caregivers – who were, at the time, absolutely necessary for one’s survival, and hence unable to be adjudged as having done anything wrong. One therefore turned very early against oneself in blame and shame to defend whatever atrocious actions were taken against one – defended them and adjudicated them as correct and proper; and judged oneself therefore to have been wrong and at blame! Having done this repeatedly, one easily arrives at a position of feeling guilty, at least, for assigning any blame or responsibility to one’s caregivers.
At the same time, it is quite difficult to pursue the tasks of one’s adult life with the enormous burden of the residua of the original acts in one’s daily awareness and consciousness. Thus, one might early adopt eating too much food (a favorite of mine) in order to cloud or obfuscate one’s own consciousness; in order to be less aware of the caustic experiences – in other words, to dissociate from one’s own self in some manner. Like any repetitive action, one can easily become inured of it – and use it even in situation when it is not necessary or appropriate. One might adopt such a behavioral pattern as one’s normative choice.
Healing, therefore, becomes a matter of integrating the dissociated material; and subsequently adopting new behavioral patterns based on the healed awareness (i.e., eating less because one no longer has aberrant cravings for more than one actually needs; not using stimulant drugs because one no longer feels severely depressed and energetically sluggish without them). These new behavioral patterns are relatively easy when one no longer feels the need to shelter or defend the damaging actions, and the sequelae, of one’s earliest caregivers. Then all of the anger and rage that one may have been directing toward oneself will be appropriately assigned to the proper party, and released. The emotion must be released first. At some point thereafter, forgiveness will come of its own accord, as will appropriate eating habits and body weight adjustment. But the healing and the release are primary and, as such, cannot be forced.
The entire process may become much easier, if one no longer has to use food to suppress innate desires and needs. One need not struggle, blaming “demons” or cursing one’s craving for sweets and carbohydrates; or denigrate oneself, wishing one were “normal.” One can simply be whom one is, and must perforce make one’s own way in the world. One’s path is neither easier nor harder than anyone else’s. But it will be one’s own, won utterly and with a lovingkindness one was never shown as a child. One has to “grow myself up” as it were, by being one’s own best analog inner parent, treating oneself in the best possible ways one can – as a loving, protective adult fiercely guarding one’s inner child. One must emotionally become an adult, and not blame one’s parents (or others) for one’s pains and difficulties. One must be responsible for fostering joy and embracing the power that resides within oneself – and for manifesting the world in the image one embraces.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Recapitulation – Part II
The net result, then, is that we as adults create a society that reflects our collective childhood experience, though that society is extant before we are born. We have no real choice about the world into which we are born. The newborn must immediately begin to adapt – and one can do so easily because one’s nervous system is still relatively unformed, incredibly ready to absorb life-giving information. It is indeed feedback that nurtures the nascent nervous system.
No one creates the world into which he or she is born. Each of us comes as a result of the successful joining and germination of a sperm cell and an egg. Each of these contains 23 chromosomes, half the blueprint for a new body to house life.
I believe that these sex cells contain much, much more. They contain the essence of the two humans who are joining – their hopes and dreams, their fears and shame, their desires and aspirations, not only of and for themselves, but for the child they are creating (even if by default, as in the case of one or both of the two parties not being aware of wanting to conceive). These desires and tendencies are shaped by the life experiences of the makers of the new body. I believe that they are projected onto and into this newly created form, are carried, waiting, as it were, for the form to form.
Society exists before any individual does. There is always a pre-existing structure into which any individual is born, one with its own diverse cultures, dreams and visions, rules and regulations. Everyone in that extant society is invested in the operative paradigm, or blueprint, of that society – even those who are most opposed or resistant to its basic tenets and work against the stated or implied aims. The society contains the collective essence of all of its individual components and shapes these individuals just as the individuals, to some greater or lesser extent, shape society for survival and the furtherance of their goals.
One is actually being socially conditioned from the moment of one’s first breath. Kotulak (1996/1997) pointed to a great variety of learning that is documented from the moment a newborn begins to organize his or her brain through feedback from sensory stimuli in the environment. The mother’s hormones are the primary influence upon the developing fetus, but she is continually interacting with the world at large; and the complex set of others with whom she daily interacts, not the least of whom might be the child’s biological father – and his complex set of needs, wants, desires, hopes, visions. One’s birth mother has a tremendous influence on one in so many subtle and complex ways, including her choice of foods and use of medicines and other drugs, including alcohol. All drugs, are mood-altering, and mutagenic, hence the mother-to-be’s choices in this arena are extremely significant.
Thus the whole of society acts upon one from the moment of first breath through one’s birth parents and circumstances – especially as they carry their own complex set of experiences, pains, joys, and traumas. No one is perfect, and no one has perfect parents. Even the desire to give the newborn child “the very best” is colored by the life experiences and choices of the parents, who will discriminate and be prejudiced toward or against those choices they themselves have made – and will therefore choose for their child. Thus from that very first primal moment, each of us is being influenced by the entire of extant society acting through our birth parents to absorb and imprint lessons, behavioral patterns, and what will ultimately become the foundation for choices formed in those earliest moments of one’s separate existence in the highly chaotic and disorganized period of earliest gestation. Notwithstanding, Bohm (1990), expressed an idea to which I will return later, that there is an:
Implicate Order [that] exists as an ultimate physical substrate that underlies our present perception of reality. Although the parts appear to be distinct from the whole, in fact, because they “enfold” or include the whole, they are identical with the whole. If we could invoke the precedent of quantum mechanical indefinability, we could leap to the idea of a united entity encompassing all space and time in which each part contains the whole and is identical to it. (p. 34)
Schmidt (1995) defines self as a “process of becoming which requires otherness to come to itself. In going out of itself, it finds what is other to it. In being found, it finds itself, thereby gaining its constituent nature” (p.192). Malon, Paulus, and Hurley (1994) noted that “a self evolves in social interaction, and each person, through the ability to symbolize experience, carries internal representations of their real social world” (p. 52). Miller (1990) states “Self feeling is simply the certainty that the feelings and wishes one experiences are a part of one’s self...This natural contact with one’s own emotions and wishes is what gives one a sense of strength and esteem” (p. 33).
The development of the self is an interactive process (Oatley & Johnson-Laird, 1991). The developing individual’s sense of well-being and identity as exquisitely related to the shaping and growth of his still-plastic neural system. One absorbs the modeled lessons of one’s care figures without discrimination because of the unique plasticized brain learning of infancy and early childhood called neoteny (Hebb, 1949; Rosenzweig & Bennett 1996) that allows for the incredible neural development that, at times in the new brain, synapses form “at the incredible rate of three billion a second…[such that] at eight months, a baby’s brain has about 1000 trillion connections” (Kotulak, 1996/1997, p. xiv). Because, at that point, one has yet nothing to alter one’s utter vulnerability, one may be imprinted with the essential emotional tone of these lessons like black ink on the white paper of one’s consciousness. One has, without any conscious thought or volition, been introduced to expectations – certain ways of thinking, acting, being, as preferences. There may be an actual physical substrate to this. Springer (1994) speaks of this as the “well-marked neural pathways (built up myelin sheaths) of the brain” (p. 14).
Between 18-36 months, one begins to differentiate between self and other; begins to first recognize that all is not the self; that there is a world, totally unknown, beyond the reach of one’s senses. The caregivers’ responses to the nascent effort of the developing individual are extremely critical to the development of a firm and solid self-image in the child (Laing, 1969), programmed to some great extent by the responses of the caregiver to the infant.
A key quality of this feedback is the recognition of the infant’s needs, the soothing of and attendance to those needs by the appropriate adults. This is absorbed as non-verbal neural data that may very likely become the model of self-care that the individual adopts later in his or her life. I believe that damage inflicted on the developing individual will result in the later development of disorganization of the personality in a variety of ways, addictions as a pseudo-bonding attempt and aberrant self-soothing measure, and quite possibly severe mental illnesses of every sort. The manner and quality practiced upon one will be absorbed without discrimination, again since the brain of the developing child is extremely plastic and impressionable (Hebb, 1949; Rosensweig & Bennett, 1996). As a result, one is early tuned to a process of response and feedback, a cybernetic feedback loop (Maltz, 1970) with what becomes called other.
The further process of socialization then begins to include some level of focus on the external as a source of fulfillment of/for one’s needs. From the age of approximately 36 months, one increasingly gives importance and focus to the external because one is taught and expected to obey authorities of all stripe; to manipulate, appease or cajole those external to the self for one’s own appeasement and satisfaction. One is, in effect, conditioned by the whole history of one’s caregivers and their acquired life experience, habits, faults, etc.
The net result, then, is that we as adults create a society that reflects our collective childhood experience, though that society is extant before we are born. We have no real choice about the world into which we are born. The newborn must immediately begin to adapt – and one can do so easily because one’s nervous system is still relatively unformed, incredibly ready to absorb life-giving information. It is indeed feedback that nurtures the nascent nervous system.
No one creates the world into which he or she is born. Each of us comes as a result of the successful joining and germination of a sperm cell and an egg. Each of these contains 23 chromosomes, half the blueprint for a new body to house life.
I believe that these sex cells contain much, much more. They contain the essence of the two humans who are joining – their hopes and dreams, their fears and shame, their desires and aspirations, not only of and for themselves, but for the child they are creating (even if by default, as in the case of one or both of the two parties not being aware of wanting to conceive). These desires and tendencies are shaped by the life experiences of the makers of the new body. I believe that they are projected onto and into this newly created form, are carried, waiting, as it were, for the form to form.
Society exists before any individual does. There is always a pre-existing structure into which any individual is born, one with its own diverse cultures, dreams and visions, rules and regulations. Everyone in that extant society is invested in the operative paradigm, or blueprint, of that society – even those who are most opposed or resistant to its basic tenets and work against the stated or implied aims. The society contains the collective essence of all of its individual components and shapes these individuals just as the individuals, to some greater or lesser extent, shape society for survival and the furtherance of their goals.
One is actually being socially conditioned from the moment of one’s first breath. Kotulak (1996/1997) pointed to a great variety of learning that is documented from the moment a newborn begins to organize his or her brain through feedback from sensory stimuli in the environment. The mother’s hormones are the primary influence upon the developing fetus, but she is continually interacting with the world at large; and the complex set of others with whom she daily interacts, not the least of whom might be the child’s biological father – and his complex set of needs, wants, desires, hopes, visions. One’s birth mother has a tremendous influence on one in so many subtle and complex ways, including her choice of foods and use of medicines and other drugs, including alcohol. All drugs, are mood-altering, and mutagenic, hence the mother-to-be’s choices in this arena are extremely significant.
Thus the whole of society acts upon one from the moment of first breath through one’s birth parents and circumstances – especially as they carry their own complex set of experiences, pains, joys, and traumas. No one is perfect, and no one has perfect parents. Even the desire to give the newborn child “the very best” is colored by the life experiences and choices of the parents, who will discriminate and be prejudiced toward or against those choices they themselves have made – and will therefore choose for their child. Thus from that very first primal moment, each of us is being influenced by the entire of extant society acting through our birth parents to absorb and imprint lessons, behavioral patterns, and what will ultimately become the foundation for choices formed in those earliest moments of one’s separate existence in the highly chaotic and disorganized period of earliest gestation. Notwithstanding, Bohm (1990), expressed an idea to which I will return later, that there is an:
Implicate Order [that] exists as an ultimate physical substrate that underlies our present perception of reality. Although the parts appear to be distinct from the whole, in fact, because they “enfold” or include the whole, they are identical with the whole. If we could invoke the precedent of quantum mechanical indefinability, we could leap to the idea of a united entity encompassing all space and time in which each part contains the whole and is identical to it. (p. 34)
Schmidt (1995) defines self as a “process of becoming which requires otherness to come to itself. In going out of itself, it finds what is other to it. In being found, it finds itself, thereby gaining its constituent nature” (p.192). Malon, Paulus, and Hurley (1994) noted that “a self evolves in social interaction, and each person, through the ability to symbolize experience, carries internal representations of their real social world” (p. 52). Miller (1990) states “Self feeling is simply the certainty that the feelings and wishes one experiences are a part of one’s self...This natural contact with one’s own emotions and wishes is what gives one a sense of strength and esteem” (p. 33).
The development of the self is an interactive process (Oatley & Johnson-Laird, 1991). The developing individual’s sense of well-being and identity as exquisitely related to the shaping and growth of his still-plastic neural system. One absorbs the modeled lessons of one’s care figures without discrimination because of the unique plasticized brain learning of infancy and early childhood called neoteny (Hebb, 1949; Rosenzweig & Bennett 1996) that allows for the incredible neural development that, at times in the new brain, synapses form “at the incredible rate of three billion a second…[such that] at eight months, a baby’s brain has about 1000 trillion connections” (Kotulak, 1996/1997, p. xiv). Because, at that point, one has yet nothing to alter one’s utter vulnerability, one may be imprinted with the essential emotional tone of these lessons like black ink on the white paper of one’s consciousness. One has, without any conscious thought or volition, been introduced to expectations – certain ways of thinking, acting, being, as preferences. There may be an actual physical substrate to this. Springer (1994) speaks of this as the “well-marked neural pathways (built up myelin sheaths) of the brain” (p. 14).
Between 18-36 months, one begins to differentiate between self and other; begins to first recognize that all is not the self; that there is a world, totally unknown, beyond the reach of one’s senses. The caregivers’ responses to the nascent effort of the developing individual are extremely critical to the development of a firm and solid self-image in the child (Laing, 1969), programmed to some great extent by the responses of the caregiver to the infant.
A key quality of this feedback is the recognition of the infant’s needs, the soothing of and attendance to those needs by the appropriate adults. This is absorbed as non-verbal neural data that may very likely become the model of self-care that the individual adopts later in his or her life. I believe that damage inflicted on the developing individual will result in the later development of disorganization of the personality in a variety of ways, addictions as a pseudo-bonding attempt and aberrant self-soothing measure, and quite possibly severe mental illnesses of every sort. The manner and quality practiced upon one will be absorbed without discrimination, again since the brain of the developing child is extremely plastic and impressionable (Hebb, 1949; Rosensweig & Bennett, 1996). As a result, one is early tuned to a process of response and feedback, a cybernetic feedback loop (Maltz, 1970) with what becomes called other.
The further process of socialization then begins to include some level of focus on the external as a source of fulfillment of/for one’s needs. From the age of approximately 36 months, one increasingly gives importance and focus to the external because one is taught and expected to obey authorities of all stripe; to manipulate, appease or cajole those external to the self for one’s own appeasement and satisfaction. One is, in effect, conditioned by the whole history of one’s caregivers and their acquired life experience, habits, faults, etc.
Friday, May 14, 2010
ARAS (Age Regressed Altered States)
One may be triggered into acting or reacting to current upsets or traumas in a manner that may seem at odds with one’s chronological age. If one has unintegrated traumatic materials or memories from an earlier period of one’s life, one may flash back to an earlier time in one’s existence emotionally. One’s suppressed and internalized rage, for example, may surface in a situation that might, to the contemporary eye, seem inappropriate – though triggers in the present may re-awaken old traumas that have been unexpressed or unexplored. If one has been unable to express the fear, shame, or sense of helplessness at the time these errant emotions were originally felt, they may resurface, having been triggered by current events. An age regressed altered state (ARAS) occurs when emotions carrying the weight of an earlier age are triggered into awareness in the present, with attendant behavioral anomalies. (See also Tart, 1988).
All individuals are at least occasionally drawn back into these states, sometimes more forcefully than others, depending on the depth and breadth of previously unintegrated materials held by the individual, in storage. These traumatic memories carry a powerful psychic charge, and one’s body may be awaiting an opportunity to express and release them. These are state-dependent memories and are stored with linkages to the original traumatic circumstances and triggers. The homeostatic process (Cannon, 1932) is at work, seeking to balance any untoward experience, and make more relatively free the workings of the individual’s energies, previously bound. If one has suppressed some aspect of one’s emotional processing because of the presence of a fearful or shame-inducing object (e.g., an angry father by whom one is fearful of being beaten who smells of tobacco smoke and alcohol), then it is possible that any future encounter that stimulates fear may be triggered by any of the elements that made up the original encounter – tobacco smoke, the smell of alcohol, an angry man, one’s sense of needing to submit to an angry man, etc.). In that experience, it is actually an emotionally charged analog child state that manifests in that moment, directly related to the age-regressed child analog that originally experienced the trauma.
Case Example
Bill is a seemingly average forty-year old businessman who is invited to a cocktail party with his peers at his boss’s house. He is anxious to make a good impression, and has perhaps spent some time rehearsing his social graces, tuning up his conversation for the evening (the latest statistics to impress his superiors, sports’ scores perhaps). But because he is anxious, he has one too many cocktails, exceeding what he really knows is his limit. A co-worker makes what Bill would normally have considered an innocuous remark; but on this occasion, fueled by too much alcohol, Bill suddenly decides that the comment was aimed at him. He is particularly reminded of his older brother who had always verbally demeaned him in a similar manner; and backed it up with threats and occasional demonstrations of physical violence. Bill was always humiliated and generally took the beatings without fighting back because he was too afraid of his brother.
Bill might ordinarily have ignored the remark, at least to maintain his façade, but tonight he reacts in a way that is totally at odds with his usual persona. The alcohol has triggered a long-suppressed sense of emotional deficiency in him. Suddenly he feels immensely ashamed, as if her were 5 years old again – and reacts as if he were. Though his colleagues judge him to be acting “inappropriately,” even in a manner not befitting his position – one that a psychologically astute witness might call regressed. With his brain disinhibited by alcohol, he is vulnerable to the otherwise inaccessible contents of his long-suppressed memories and emotions. He raises his voice in a harsh and challenging fashion, and challenges his co-worker to a fistfight. He is filled with images of his repeated humiliations and has decided that he will no longer put up with his brother’s intrusions; that he is old enough and big enough to finally take care of the situation. The initial images that filled his mind may have long passed by now, leaving only the bitter residue of their memory. They may have been gone even before he can take back his shamed and angry words; perhaps even before he is forcibly removed from the room in full view of his boss’s disapproving glare.
Reflection
A disinterested observer might have commented that Bill was “acting like he was 5 years old.” In some sense this was partly true. The ARAS triggered in him gave rise to memories that were previously frozen in time (age 5) and freshly awakened in the present moment. Bill did not act upon the rage he froze and stored, as he was legitimately fearful for his life at that time. Now all of the stored energy has been awakened and mobilized. The original emotions, plus those that are associated with other similar incidents throughout the course of his life that have been unexpressed, all rush to the forefront of his disinhibited consciousness. (The feeling of possession that many addicts, and victims of violence express, may be related to such a process being acted out by the perpetrator.) This may be related to Seligman’s (1975) notion of “learned helplessness,” if it has been repeated frequently enough.
It is the freeing of these orphaned states, with their intense affective charge, that may ultimately need to be revealed to the self in order to free oneself of the webs of shame and entanglement that are so often wrapped in parental (and by extension, societal) mandates and proscriptions. Establishing an “aware ego” (Stone & Stone, 1989) is related to what I am calling an Inner Adult (IA) – a stable, radiant inner center of consciousness wherein the errant energies may be retrieved, grieved, and integrated into the larger personality of the individual. I will discuss this in further depth in the section on healing.
Within the context of the encounter, one may actually feel some sense of temporal dislocation, as if one were both the age-regressed child and the contemporary adult. One may have the opportunity to heal an old, unintegrated rift if one is able to own the dissociated materials as one’s own. Conversely, it is possible that one may be re-traumatized by the experience; may feel re-ashamed by the needs and feelings that surface; may re-suppress the materials rather than working through, or processing, them. In this latter case, the energy and materials are very likely to be re-interred only to resurface at a future time, as the correspondence between the energy and the materials remains unresolved.
This may be the basis of compulsive activities, performed as a kind of magic warding to keep away unwanted or fearful materials from a more conscious awareness (Levenkron, 1991). This also holds the original dysregulated affect in stasis, awaiting integration. In this view, one might see an addictive process as a series of repetitive compulsive behaviors whose purpose is self-soothing (albeit in an aberrant manner) that simultaneously obviates the individual’s personal power which is held encapsulated or encysted in time awaiting healing and integration. It is the analog child that has been triggered in the ARAS, and seeks the healing and soothing that child wanted and needed at the time of the original trauma.
One may be triggered into acting or reacting to current upsets or traumas in a manner that may seem at odds with one’s chronological age. If one has unintegrated traumatic materials or memories from an earlier period of one’s life, one may flash back to an earlier time in one’s existence emotionally. One’s suppressed and internalized rage, for example, may surface in a situation that might, to the contemporary eye, seem inappropriate – though triggers in the present may re-awaken old traumas that have been unexpressed or unexplored. If one has been unable to express the fear, shame, or sense of helplessness at the time these errant emotions were originally felt, they may resurface, having been triggered by current events. An age regressed altered state (ARAS) occurs when emotions carrying the weight of an earlier age are triggered into awareness in the present, with attendant behavioral anomalies. (See also Tart, 1988).
All individuals are at least occasionally drawn back into these states, sometimes more forcefully than others, depending on the depth and breadth of previously unintegrated materials held by the individual, in storage. These traumatic memories carry a powerful psychic charge, and one’s body may be awaiting an opportunity to express and release them. These are state-dependent memories and are stored with linkages to the original traumatic circumstances and triggers. The homeostatic process (Cannon, 1932) is at work, seeking to balance any untoward experience, and make more relatively free the workings of the individual’s energies, previously bound. If one has suppressed some aspect of one’s emotional processing because of the presence of a fearful or shame-inducing object (e.g., an angry father by whom one is fearful of being beaten who smells of tobacco smoke and alcohol), then it is possible that any future encounter that stimulates fear may be triggered by any of the elements that made up the original encounter – tobacco smoke, the smell of alcohol, an angry man, one’s sense of needing to submit to an angry man, etc.). In that experience, it is actually an emotionally charged analog child state that manifests in that moment, directly related to the age-regressed child analog that originally experienced the trauma.
Case Example
Bill is a seemingly average forty-year old businessman who is invited to a cocktail party with his peers at his boss’s house. He is anxious to make a good impression, and has perhaps spent some time rehearsing his social graces, tuning up his conversation for the evening (the latest statistics to impress his superiors, sports’ scores perhaps). But because he is anxious, he has one too many cocktails, exceeding what he really knows is his limit. A co-worker makes what Bill would normally have considered an innocuous remark; but on this occasion, fueled by too much alcohol, Bill suddenly decides that the comment was aimed at him. He is particularly reminded of his older brother who had always verbally demeaned him in a similar manner; and backed it up with threats and occasional demonstrations of physical violence. Bill was always humiliated and generally took the beatings without fighting back because he was too afraid of his brother.
Bill might ordinarily have ignored the remark, at least to maintain his façade, but tonight he reacts in a way that is totally at odds with his usual persona. The alcohol has triggered a long-suppressed sense of emotional deficiency in him. Suddenly he feels immensely ashamed, as if her were 5 years old again – and reacts as if he were. Though his colleagues judge him to be acting “inappropriately,” even in a manner not befitting his position – one that a psychologically astute witness might call regressed. With his brain disinhibited by alcohol, he is vulnerable to the otherwise inaccessible contents of his long-suppressed memories and emotions. He raises his voice in a harsh and challenging fashion, and challenges his co-worker to a fistfight. He is filled with images of his repeated humiliations and has decided that he will no longer put up with his brother’s intrusions; that he is old enough and big enough to finally take care of the situation. The initial images that filled his mind may have long passed by now, leaving only the bitter residue of their memory. They may have been gone even before he can take back his shamed and angry words; perhaps even before he is forcibly removed from the room in full view of his boss’s disapproving glare.
Reflection
A disinterested observer might have commented that Bill was “acting like he was 5 years old.” In some sense this was partly true. The ARAS triggered in him gave rise to memories that were previously frozen in time (age 5) and freshly awakened in the present moment. Bill did not act upon the rage he froze and stored, as he was legitimately fearful for his life at that time. Now all of the stored energy has been awakened and mobilized. The original emotions, plus those that are associated with other similar incidents throughout the course of his life that have been unexpressed, all rush to the forefront of his disinhibited consciousness. (The feeling of possession that many addicts, and victims of violence express, may be related to such a process being acted out by the perpetrator.) This may be related to Seligman’s (1975) notion of “learned helplessness,” if it has been repeated frequently enough.
It is the freeing of these orphaned states, with their intense affective charge, that may ultimately need to be revealed to the self in order to free oneself of the webs of shame and entanglement that are so often wrapped in parental (and by extension, societal) mandates and proscriptions. Establishing an “aware ego” (Stone & Stone, 1989) is related to what I am calling an Inner Adult (IA) – a stable, radiant inner center of consciousness wherein the errant energies may be retrieved, grieved, and integrated into the larger personality of the individual. I will discuss this in further depth in the section on healing.
Within the context of the encounter, one may actually feel some sense of temporal dislocation, as if one were both the age-regressed child and the contemporary adult. One may have the opportunity to heal an old, unintegrated rift if one is able to own the dissociated materials as one’s own. Conversely, it is possible that one may be re-traumatized by the experience; may feel re-ashamed by the needs and feelings that surface; may re-suppress the materials rather than working through, or processing, them. In this latter case, the energy and materials are very likely to be re-interred only to resurface at a future time, as the correspondence between the energy and the materials remains unresolved.
This may be the basis of compulsive activities, performed as a kind of magic warding to keep away unwanted or fearful materials from a more conscious awareness (Levenkron, 1991). This also holds the original dysregulated affect in stasis, awaiting integration. In this view, one might see an addictive process as a series of repetitive compulsive behaviors whose purpose is self-soothing (albeit in an aberrant manner) that simultaneously obviates the individual’s personal power which is held encapsulated or encysted in time awaiting healing and integration. It is the analog child that has been triggered in the ARAS, and seeks the healing and soothing that child wanted and needed at the time of the original trauma.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Further Thought on the Permanent War Economy
The US has been in 74 wars in Third World Countries since World War II (Grossman, 2001, p. 1).
Dekker (1991) described a “permanent war economy,” one that feeds on aggressive intrusion into other people’s lives and countries – and the greed addiction that underlies a nation’s being continuously at war as a means of bolstering its financial well being. (These violations are analogous to the boundary violations of children routinely practiced under the aegis of socialization.)
Shainberg (1987) commented on the human propensity for war:
Look at the vortex of the nuclear arms race as a vortex arising out of the greed of human beings who are isolated in their separate selves and do not feel the connection to other human beings. They are feeling a peculiar emptiness and become greedy for everything they can get to fill themselves. Hence nuclear industries proliferate because they provide large amounts of money and the greed is so extensive that such people do not care what might happen from their actions. (p. 402)
These routine, seemingly unnoticed, boundary violations of government have become incorporated into our foreign policy. This policy has been transposed and amplified from European colonial policy (e.g., massive genocide of, and virulent lies [“treaties”] to, Native American populations since 1492). Based on the arrogance of the ruling class – and the concomitant manipulation of the populace, hidden under various disguises such as national security concerns – the notion that the US has a divine right to forcibly influence other nations to our way of thinking has become normalized to a great extent and goes almost unquestioned. (Though I am certain that there are many businesses that follow ethical standards and attempt to provide quality goods and services, I believe that many businesses are directly concerned with competition and exploitation. Metaphors of killing or defeating the competition are common.)
Argüelles (1975) asserted that while our first and only duty is the “development and refinement of consciousness” (p. 279), living the sacred in one’s daily life in technological civilization “is viewed as a crime and a direct threat to the very existence of society” (p. 277). This is, of course, made much more difficult for all of us when the structure of culture, the container, as it were, is itself corrupt and slanted in favor of the dominant paradigm of production and consumption that benefits only the ultra-rich, not spiritual values that incorporate the totality of humanity. This secularization of daily life is reflected in the frantic pace that many of us live, being constantly pressured and/or overwhelmed by the exigencies of a daily life.
Schmookler (1988) noted: “Civilization inevitably arose in a fragmented state, and under such circumstances, inevitably it was power and not collective human choice that ruled our common destiny. With no escape from the struggle for power, the world was rendered unsafe for most humane and gentle values” (p. 23). The constant fear of war is “anesthetized by economic well being” and we become accustomed to living in the stress of impending war – promoted by the cultural elites as necessary. “If the economy were threatened by war, we would be the most peaceful people on earth” (Henry, 1965, p. 263).
The US has been in 74 wars in Third World Countries since World War II (Grossman, 2001, p. 1).
Dekker (1991) described a “permanent war economy,” one that feeds on aggressive intrusion into other people’s lives and countries – and the greed addiction that underlies a nation’s being continuously at war as a means of bolstering its financial well being. (These violations are analogous to the boundary violations of children routinely practiced under the aegis of socialization.)
Shainberg (1987) commented on the human propensity for war:
Look at the vortex of the nuclear arms race as a vortex arising out of the greed of human beings who are isolated in their separate selves and do not feel the connection to other human beings. They are feeling a peculiar emptiness and become greedy for everything they can get to fill themselves. Hence nuclear industries proliferate because they provide large amounts of money and the greed is so extensive that such people do not care what might happen from their actions. (p. 402)
These routine, seemingly unnoticed, boundary violations of government have become incorporated into our foreign policy. This policy has been transposed and amplified from European colonial policy (e.g., massive genocide of, and virulent lies [“treaties”] to, Native American populations since 1492). Based on the arrogance of the ruling class – and the concomitant manipulation of the populace, hidden under various disguises such as national security concerns – the notion that the US has a divine right to forcibly influence other nations to our way of thinking has become normalized to a great extent and goes almost unquestioned. (Though I am certain that there are many businesses that follow ethical standards and attempt to provide quality goods and services, I believe that many businesses are directly concerned with competition and exploitation. Metaphors of killing or defeating the competition are common.)
Argüelles (1975) asserted that while our first and only duty is the “development and refinement of consciousness” (p. 279), living the sacred in one’s daily life in technological civilization “is viewed as a crime and a direct threat to the very existence of society” (p. 277). This is, of course, made much more difficult for all of us when the structure of culture, the container, as it were, is itself corrupt and slanted in favor of the dominant paradigm of production and consumption that benefits only the ultra-rich, not spiritual values that incorporate the totality of humanity. This secularization of daily life is reflected in the frantic pace that many of us live, being constantly pressured and/or overwhelmed by the exigencies of a daily life.
Schmookler (1988) noted: “Civilization inevitably arose in a fragmented state, and under such circumstances, inevitably it was power and not collective human choice that ruled our common destiny. With no escape from the struggle for power, the world was rendered unsafe for most humane and gentle values” (p. 23). The constant fear of war is “anesthetized by economic well being” and we become accustomed to living in the stress of impending war – promoted by the cultural elites as necessary. “If the economy were threatened by war, we would be the most peaceful people on earth” (Henry, 1965, p. 263).
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